blergh

[nigeltde]

I don't even know what motivation feels like anymore. I tell everyone that I find it fascinating stuff and I do, but actually getting my shit together enough to write essays or presentations? I just don't CARE, and this is one of my fav subjects. I don't know if I'm going to be able to go back to full time next semester. On the other hand, I feel like I really need to acheive a degree so that I can look myself and the world in the eye and so that I don't feel like a stupid retard and so that this hasn't all been a waste of time and and so that I can actually have ACHIEVED something significant and so that my future contains some hope of interesting employment. And yet I can't bring myself to care enough to get my fucking act together.



This whinge brought to you by an essay I'm avoiding.

Comments

[lainy122.livejournal.com]

I completely understand what you mean - exactly the same way I feel. Sometimes I'm all, wow this is really interesting, but when it comes to actually doing work? Nuh uh.

I'm seriously considering doing part time next year.

[nigeltde]

I'm right there with you babe. I've always enjoyed sharing my Total Slacker status with you, it helps me to not feel like such a twat :-D

[lainy122.livejournal.com]

Feeling's mutual ;)